Absolute Love by Erin Everleigh
Genre: Contemporary Romance
But the unexpected death of her mother causes Phoebe’s world to come crashing down.
Confronted with the realization that the missing pieces of her past are lost to her forever, she watches herself morph into a person she no longer recognizes. A person she quickly grows to hate.
Barely making it through each day, Phoebe struggles to repress her darkest thoughts. But at night, she is held captive in nightmares from which she cannot escape.
With her marriage dangling by a thread, Phoebe fears a future with Justin may no longer be possible.
Refusing to give up, Justin fights for the life they used to share. But when he stumbles upon what could be the missing piece to Phoebe's past, he is faced with a choice that could cost him everything.
When you feel like all hope is lost, is there a love that can transcend all and revive a broken soul?
My mind has become consumed with anger, bitterness and resentment. With my mother gone, pieces of my past have been lost forever. I had desperately tried to respect my mother’s wishes and not ask about my father. But deep inside, not knowing the truth left me feeling empty and incomplete – as if a part of me were locked away, just beyond my grasp. I'd always assumed that my mother would eventually tell me the truth – when she was ready. But now that she is gone, I don’t know how to cope with the fact that I will never truly understand who I am.
Justin doesn’t understand. I don’t think he ever really understood why it was so important for me to get answers. I should have known better than to try to talk to him about what I was feeling. I wish I could rid myself of these terrible thoughts and haunting dreams. But I can’t and I'm spiraling out of control. I feel myself slipping away from reality and from those around me. I'm keeping everyone at a distance. I'm terrified to let anyone see the person I’ve become. But in doing so, I'm alienating every person who was ever close to me and feel more alone than ever.
TBird's 5 star Review
I found this book to be one of the most beautifully written stories of love, redemption, loss and understanding. Add in forgiveness and finding yourself and you have an epic read for 2015. While Phoebe struggles to find herself through the darkness there is always a bright light within her reach. It doesn’t matter how bad the situation is, what matters most is, are you willing to find the good in every situation. Sometimes the truth hurts, sometimes the lies hurt worse, but no matter what, it is the motivation behind the truth or lies that will determine how you accept your fate.
The author did a brilliant job at keeping this story realistic. She gives us the world of Phoebe in a way that any reader can connect with and understand the emotions and hopes that could have destroyed her or made her blossom into the woman she was meant to be. We all grow up thinking we know about the generations before us, the ones who sacrificed and struggled to make the world we live in a better place today. We know our grandparents, our parents, we hear the stories and make them part of our life story but for Phoebe, she was missing a huge part of her past, her father. It wasn’t until the death of her mother that she was forced to accept those answers may never come, she will have to accept that she will be half a person for the rest of her life. With building anger and resentment towards her mother confused with loss, love and guilt towards her as well, Phoebe’s life took a turn for the dark as she plummeted into depression.
She started questioning her relationship with her husband, who left her after a while because he couldn’t deal with her depression. When her ex-boyfriend moved in next door, she was then faced with trying to accept what had happen between them years ago and find the truth that was denied all this time. She would look in the mirror and not see the mask she had worn all these years. It felt like the moment she shoveled the dirt on her mother’s coffin, she also buried the Phoebe the world had known. The true broken soul of the real Phoebe emerged and she was left to be dealt with.
Throughout this story as the truth begins to unravel regarding her marriage, her past, who her father was and the real history of her mother, we see Phoebe begin to put back the pieces of her life, yet this time they are in the proper places. As the theme in this book goes, it took the lemons that life threw at her to force her to find the sugar and make the lemonade. It wasn’t easy for her to accept the things she had lost, the things never offered to her and the realization of how loved she really was in life but in order to move on she had to let go of the pain caused by the actions of others and look at their motivation behind the painful decisions.
The author uses a lot of flashback scenes and dream journals in this book as Phoebe goes back and looks at her past and finds the facts that had been hidden by denial and hopes all of these years. As she found her awakening, we were there to experience it with her.
Absolute Love is highly recommended not only for the beautiful story but the message that will stay with me for a long time. As my Grandmother used to say, the author “preached a sermon” that will touch many people who struggle with secrets, lost hopes and dreams yet she does it with love, beauty and grace like none I have seen in a long time. She also made me stop and think about those I have lost in my life and what secrets did they go to the grave with in order to make my life better. We never know the price of love in life until we are the ones who are paying that price.
5 Star Praise for Absolute Love:"Absolute Love is an exceptional debut novel. Written in joint POV, which i love, you get see the devastating effect Phoebe's loss has not only on her but also on Justin her husband." ~Bare Naked Words~
"This debut novel was one of my favorite reads so far this year!"
Make sure you set aside plenty of time to read this one as you won't want to stop once you get started - it is that good! ~Nerd Girl~
"Absolute Love is confronting and raw. It’s emotionally charged. It’s beautiful and heart warming.
It’s about love."
"We commend Erin on her début novel. A definite 5 star read." ~Bloggers from Down Under~
Canadian born and raised, Erin Everleigh, is the mom of three girls, who always keep her on her toes - twins age 7 and an older sister who is 9. She has a self-confessed addiction to reading that her family will certainly corroborate, and you will rarely find her without her kindle at arm’s length constantly feeding this obsession. She is the author of newly released novel, Absolute Love. A story that composed itself in her head, which she could no longer ignore. After months of writing out chapters on her iPhone, she finally opened up her laptop and decided to take the plunge.
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